Tea party at my place

Hell yeah, 2009!

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 07:36:19 GMT

Moving house again, it looks.

No idea where to.

We'll see!

:D

Saturday night

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 12:55:35 GMT

Concise recount over at tattered_pinion

So the first thing I felt was my throat and lungs burning like hell. Breathing out was fine, but inhaling, holy shit, was damn difficult. I tried to cough because it felt like my lungs were filled with something, and then to exhale a lot, but I could only get a little air in. I remember thinking that the burning in my lungs probably wasn't real and just my brain lying, so tried to breathe normally even though it caned. Not breathing felt fine, better even. At first, I kind of just tried it out to see what would happen, but something usually snapped me back.

I tried to tell people that I couldn't breathe, and that I was about to stop breathing and pass out. Someone asked me how I was going, another person asked if I wanted Trent. Trent went to find my ventolin, which wasn't in my bag at all, hurr; I took it out the last time I went running.

There was some hesitation over calling an ambulance, then they were redirected, then cancelled, then called again, so they were hell pissed by the time they got to me. Still at Mahonia, I passed out a couple of times, but only for a few seconds. Every time I'd pass out, I'd snap to with a jolt and a sharp intake of air. I started to shake intermittently and was losing consciousness a lot more frequently.

I was dragged into a car. If I didn't consciously think about breathing, I just stopped. There was no reflex saying, "Okay, time to breathe in now." Screw you autonomic nervous system. Seriously. Screw. You. But there was this thing in my head saying, "It's fine. Just relax. You don't need to breathe. It'll be over soon and you'll just sleep."

And I thought HELL FRICKEN NO and I'd jolt back again.

In the car, I had Trent on one side and Chris on the other. I remember Chris talking to me and saying Hi and keeping me awake and getting me to squeeze his hand, and Trent talking me through breathing. For realz, I felt so stupid. Like that blonde in that joke with the headphones; "Breathe in. Breathe out." My eyes were closed most of the time, but when I opened them I just saw the boys, and Reaps going hella fast. Each time I stopped breathing there was a lot of, "Kat KAT wake up, Kat" and I'd remember what was going on and what I had to do. Breathing is so difficult when your body isn't just doing it for you.

I remember getting to my house, people fumbling with the door, and getting inside. I took four lungs full of ventolin and could breathe a lot better. I looked at Trent, and said, "I'm okay. I'm okay." In hindsight, I should have kept taking my puffer, but at the time I was worried that it would screw with my heartrate too much. So I started passing out again. I was standing with Trent and just ran out of energy to breathe. I kind of slumped into him and hoped that he'd notice I was slipping again, because I just couldn't tell anyone out loud.

But this time, when I stopped breathing, people yelling at me and shaking me didn't work; they felt really distant and I could hear them getting further and further away. When Trent breathed into my lungs, it really shocked me. Kind of like the other jolts but a lot more intense. I remember this happening several times, but I lost count of how many times he resuscitated me. At least five or six, definitely more, but I just can't remember.

I remember sitting down in a chair next to Chris and Trent and kind of falling into Trent's chest before he'd resuscitate me again. I knew that if I went to sleep, I wouldn't wake up again because my body wasn't taking control of my breathing; I was in control and I had to keep going. Basically, I didn't want to let Trent down, and I wanted to see him again.

I'm not going to talk about getting into the ambulance and the ER and the rest of the hospital because it was fricken horrible and tbqh I hate people forever.

So yeah, as wanky as all this sounds, this is what I went through and I don't want to forget it.

This is what happened today:

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 15:18:25 GMT

I got up, cleaned my house, the went to Sam's to get some computer advice. I bought a bunch of things to pick up on Tuesday so I can play TF2 IN MY OWN HOUSE MOFOS YEAH which is pretty choice.

Then I had this conversation with Ivo:

Voided: actually the cutest is that when i was in yr 3
Voided: this girl told one of my friends that she liked me
Voided: and he told me
Voided: and i ran back to class in horror
Voided: (because girls are gross :P)
Kat: hahaha
Voided: and asked her
Voided: and she said
Voided: "if we caught the same bus I would sit next to you"
Kat: oh my god
Kat: that's the best
Voided: given context probably the most romantic thing anyone has ever said to me :P
Kat: :P
Kat: I would hell tell that to someone now
Kat: or write it in a card
Kat: that's impossibly cute

Isn't that the most amazing thing that someone could say to you??? My god, that juvenile, innocent naivete is BEAUTIFUL.

Then Sam and I went along to the Bedroom Philosopher's gig. He was wonderful. I want to hold him and stroke his hair and compliment his tie collection THAT IS HOW LOVELY HE IS. Then he high-fived me and this thing happened:

Me (with cd's): Hi sup!
BP: Sup!
Me: Now, I want something very specific.
BP: Oh, okay - which one?
Me: That's... inappropriate.
BP: *cowers* I'm sorry :/ *shoulder touch*

Then I got him to sign my CD:

It says: 'If I caught your bus I'd sit next to you' blah blah blah the rest is unimportant because that is the most romantic thing I've heard all day. And he told me I rocked.

Then I hugged him (btw never bathing again) and we left and ate Golden Gaytimes and Bubble-O-Bills.

And FUCK IT guys, being happy is awesome and you should do it ALL OF THE TIME.

Man, how awesome has 2009 been?

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 13:10:02 GMT

Okay. Tonight someone broke into our house and stole a bunch of stuff. No idea how. The fiends seem to be grade A knobheads because they left most of my valuables and my credit card sitting on my table but managed to mess my room up pretty badly (after I had just cleaned it for our inspection! The douchebags!). Jade was home at the time and is pretty shaken up about it, so am I tbh but I'm a lot more, hrm, calm and rational about these things.

Stuff is gone, but replaceable (except for some of Trent's stuff, which is pretty sad). I'm fine but probably won't be very sympathetic if anyone was to whinge at me about their own problems right now (not to say I don't care, but probably won't give you the caring shoulder you might like?) Perspective and whatnot, I'm a bit concerned about my personal safety.

Everyone in the East Vic Park area take care and lock up.

Should I post about Terracon? Okay, sure

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 03:42:50 GMT

Thank you all who came to Terracon! I had an amazing time even though I was half-asleep for a lot of it and always seemed to be cooking food when something was going down :P

I'm very thankful to everyone who helped out (many thanks and kudos go to patternsofchaos and reaps, you guys are legends) and think, on the whole, the weekend ran quite well. Of course, there're a lot of things I've learned and I'm more than happy to pass that on to whoever runs it next year.

I loved our hut, and I hope those helicopter fumes weren't too bad. But now I really miss having so many people around me! I have the next week off work thanks to the DC winter break. We should do some hang outs.

But yeah, I think the social events this year have been really great for UniSFA. I'm really digging the communal vibes we're creating. Again, we should do some hang outs.

True story

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 02:31:06 GMT

This morning on the bus, a guy masturbated whilst fantasising about me being a prostitute. Apparently I insisted on being paid $70 for swallowing but he would only give me $50.

Hah, and I thought I was bad at haggling.

In the town you were born, I will do a handstand

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 01:33:52 GMT

Darren Hanlon was utterly amazing. He'd played at Mojo's, which is comfortable and intimate. We got there a million years early so we managed to score a couch right next to the stage. It was wonderful to be so close to the man who inspired my high school email address.

Annoyingly drunken girls and sickness aside, it was one of the sweetest gigs I've been to. His music is very introspective and vulnerable, and I think that came across really well on stage. He responded and interacted with the crowd; he gave out eggs, high fives and piggy back rides. He didn't play Unmade Bed, which was weird because so many people requested it, but he did play Falling Aeroplanes and Happiness is a Chemical, which pleased the crowd, and A to Z and Punk's Not Dead, which pleased me. I would have liked to hear more from Little Chills, but understandably, they were trying to hype the new album. *Hopefully* they'll be selling more merch tonight so I can pick up the new EP.

Oh yes, we're going to see him again tonight. He's playing an end-of-tour party at Devilles, which is going to be fun! Yes, I'm seeing him twice; this is how much I love this man.

Last night made want a ukelele _even more_. If only just to realise that dream I once had of being on stage playing Enter Sandman on one.

this was supposed to be a big post about heritage, but instead I'm going to tell Firefox to eat me

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 13:16:47 GMT

So hi. Command+[left arrow] in any other program is home, yeah? Except in Firefox, it's back.

Go eat a dick, Firefox.

Housemates plz?

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 00:46:09 GMT

Sup friends,

As you may have heard, thar be some things going down at the moment. Basically, I am looking for a housemate or two to move into my house in East Vic Park (if the *my* confuses you, just message me about it or some deal) so that I don't die from bankruptcy. The place could easily fit another two inhabitants (a couple in the main bedroom or another in the Ched), is pretty well furnished, and the rent is pretty decent. It's super close to buses and shops too.

If you're at all interested, contact me.

btw, the house is fricken amazing.

x kat

ARGH

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 01:23:12 GMT

People are so dumb.

I'm refusing to join the "The WA Justice System failed Constable Matthew BUTCHER" group on Facebook (also the new layout isn't to my taste). It's full of people who have no information on the case other than whatever's been on Today Tonight, making accusations that the law system has again failed us. No, I won't go into any detail because, yes, I worked on this case but you can read about it and make up your own minds.

This trial went for fricken weeks and the defence was actually really impressive; Lovett is a pretty talented guy imho. Juries always have a difficult job convicting accused persons, and yeah, I agree with their verdict.

Just - ARGH, I thought people were intelligent and had the ability to think critically about the information they were fed. ALAS, NO. It seems that people just enjoy getting angry about something they have no control over (hurr yes, I see what I'm doing here) and just jump on whatever bandwagon the media throws at them. I'm sure people are feeling pretty strongly about the video that's going around, but c'mon, the jury wasn't just shown that video and asked, "Is this guy a dick? c/d"

Also! Geez, every time someone makes a comment in this group that is vaguely favourable towards the jury's decision, they're ridiculed! It just makes me so angry. Though it sounds like people are less angry at the jury and are trying to blame the legal system, and sure, okay, maybe there are some principles that need to be re-assessed but that doesn't necessarily equate to "there is a problem with the system."

The fallout from this is that some police are resigning from their jobs because they don't feel protected, which is a pretty big issue, sure, but --- Okay, I had been writing more on this but I don't want to say anything too specific. Just read things, okay?

Argh. People.

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 04:56:40 GMT

Wow, you guys are awesome.

Unisfa AGM

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 01:49:41 GMT

Yeah, I'd like to be nominated and/or voted for. It's a thing that would be really awesome. The only position I'll decline is Treasurer (oh and Pres, but that'd be ridiculous.)

So yeah, vote well, citizens!

We like [musicz] and we don't care who knows

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 11:34:43 GMT

Music is the one thing that consistently makes me happy. Erm, acquiring(!) and listening to new music is something I've enjoyed since I first sat in my bedroom recording snippets of my favourite songs from the radio onto an old cassette. Sure, back then I was into some really lame music, then Esperance discovered Triple J and my head was filled with new and exciting local artists. (Except now, Triple J is considerably less awesome and alternative, but whatevs.)

Now, when things have been hectic and messy, I know I can dance like a spack in my lounge room to some new ep and feel okay about it all. Right now, I don't think there's a more intoxicating sensation I want to experience, and that's really comforting at this moment. THINGS ARE GOING TO BE FINE. SCIENTISTS SAY SO.

To dig your way further into my head, here're the albums I've been listening to today:

Black Kids - Partie Traumatic
Van She - V
The Boy Least Likely To - The Law of the Playground
Blitzen Trapper - Furr
Tokyo Police Club - Elephant Shell
Mirah - (a)spera

They're all amazing, just saying, you should check them all out if you haven't already (and like good music.)

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 13:23:31 GMT

Sorry if you found out via Facebook - I fricken hate that thing sometimes. Yes, it's true and not some stupid suggestion by James again. I'm not going to wax lyrical about this, so yeah. If you want to talk to me or Sam, just talk to us.

love kat

Go on down and see that wrecking ball come swinging

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 14:37:01 GMT

Okay, so I _finally_ got around to listening to Scarlett Johansson's 'Anywhere I Lay My Head'. Verdict: It is not terrible. In fact, I would even go so far as to say that I enjoyed it! It's a beautiful album in the kind of way that beauty is; the sound is rough and textured and... imperfect. I mean, Johansson isn't a terrific vocalist, but that's not what the album is about, really. The instrumentals kind of drown her out, anyway. Also, the songs are sufficiently different to the Waits originals, which is good.

I really love "Falling Down", though I MAY PERHAPS BE A LITTLE BIASED BECAUSE IT FEATURES DAVID BOWIE. Man, best surprise ever.

Note: This album is best experienced on a bus. Or a train. While it's raining. No, really.

So FRIENDS, I have a question: If you were to make an album comprised of covers of one particular artist/band, who would it be?

Personally, I'd choose Paul Kelly. Firstly, because seeing him was one of the most amazing concerts I've been to. And secondly, I heard some generic Australian band do a cover of "To Her Door" on Triple J and it was fricken awful; they may as well have been doing karaoke. I think Paul Kelly deserves a little bit more than that.

Birthday #2: I figured out a theme

Wed, 03 Dec 2008 11:21:05 GMT

Parties are a great excuse to procrastinate on photoshop.

17 jan - save the date

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 13:47:22 GMT

I turn 21 this month but loads of people are going away on holidays and things, so my 21st is being belated until January.

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 00:41:23 GMT

Do you have a particular album/artist that you listen to when you're studying? Beck's Midnite Vultures and Odelay have been on high rotation lately. I think they're mellow enough that I don't feel like getting up, but somehow keep my brain active and help me concentrate.

Sun, 02 Nov 2008 05:53:51 GMT

I've realised that I have been spending far too much time on my own, and so I've been thinking too much. This, I've discovered, is why I am crazy. I've had these realisations before - they come in waves - but I really have to snap out of it. FRIENDS, KEEP ME DISTRACTED. I suppose it'll be easier when we move into a larger place where we can invite >2 people at a time.

Goodbye Panto (but not really)

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 22:47:27 GMT

Shotgun not President! Yay! Though it is like giving up a child. I sympathise the most with Dani than any of the other past presidents, I think. Mostly because we'd both done the president thing for so long and been involved in so many other areas. Next semester will be interesting, and I'd like to keep in the loop on how it all goes. Anyone who doesn't appreciate how much effort I've put into the club can go foad. Oh my goodness, I'm going to have so much free time. Alas, Europe beckons me, and I want to be able to stay there for as long as I like.

A few things, well one thing, was brought up ~~tonight~~ last night that I would rather just let die. (But I'm glad you've realised whatever you have.) Yes, production week was stressful. I have had that much stress since TEE, and I've never had a panic attack before so that was new. Thanks to people who were concerned about me and supported me; I really appreciated it. But yeah. I'm quite over it. The only memories I want to keep of panto are the ones where I'm having fun on stage with my friends, and selling tickets, and getting drunk at after parties; which, thankfully, is most of them.

I think a lot of my free time from now on is going to be put into keeping in touch/reconnecting with friends. And games. My god, so much to catch up on. (Please let me have enough money to go to eGames.) Also, I can't wait to play Mirror's Edge. Yay parkour.

Not really a meme, I swear.

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 06:30:41 GMT

My personality
My "failings"

Feel free to do it anonymously... or not at all. I'm just interested to see what people think.

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 23:22:46 GMT

I probably won't have another chance to express how I'm feeling at this moment, and I really need to document these things. I've had three hours sleep, which adds to my three hours from the night before, and I can't remember what existed before then. I'm a breathing, walking, v-fuelled version of Kat. My stomach is in knots - but not from nerves; I think my intestines are trying to escape. I really want to have a nap.

I still feel like there are a million things still to do, and opening night being tonight kind of puts a deadline on things. Heffalumps will be done. Sets will be painted. I won't get too much rope burn. Lines will be known. Scene changes will be snappy.

Anyone who hasn't directed a play before cannot understand the kind of stress I'm under right now. I really don't need any more. Thanks to those who have been making it easy on me. Less thanks to people who give me panic attacks. Thanks, Bear, for helping me out when I needed it.

I'll be stepping down a lot after this semester, so people can do whatever the fuck they want with the club without my prudishness hindering anything.

What do you guys think of feminism?

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 12:18:21 GMT

I never realised how much of an antifeminist I was until very recently. I actually find it incredible that some people are still trying to push the women-are-oppressed agenda.

I happened to mention to someone, a huge feminist, that I thought the reasons for gender segregation were genuine and based on hormones, to which they replied, "It has nothing to do with biology." NOTHING TO DO WITH BIOLOGY?! Perhaps it's just because I like science but I can't possibly see how someone can honestly believe that the differences between men and women, even social differences, could have nothing to do with biology.

I think feminism is destructive. Sure, I think it has its place in societies where its needed. Women in a lot of cultures are actually treated as second class citizens, where they truly suffer. I don't think that we live in one of those societies. But, of course, that's probably because I'm a middle class student and don't particularly seek situations where I might feel oppressed. I've encountered a lot of misogyny in male-dominated groups, but I've also come across just as much misandry in female circles. Now, I'm not equating misandry or misogyny to feminism or female oppression, but my point is I don't think there's as much gender disproportion as there is people being people.

I can drive, I can vote and I can be a mother-lawyer-welder-politician if I really want to. *shrug* I don't see the inequality. But I'm also not very well-read on the topic so if you do subscribe to the feminist movement, I would genuinely love to know why.

It's not procrastination if I have no intention of studying

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 11:03:09 GMT

Anyone who is remotely interested in Zelda (or, yknow, awesome things) and hasn't yet seen Legend of Neil, do it now. A couple of new episodes were uploaded recently-ish. Yay skeletons of doom.

Some meme about a photo

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 11:03:20 GMT

Take a picture of yourself right now.
Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair - just take a picture.
Post that picture with NO editing.
Post these instructions with the picture.

Assignments, what?!

Oh and one other thing:

Misuse of apostrophes really shits me.